Directory Assistance…

Big props to Aaron over at Arms Wide Open. He originally posted this and I have no problem stealing it and posting it here. Enjoy, and thanks Aaron.

When –
You are sad, phone John 14
You have sinned, phone Psalm 51
You are facing danger, phone Psalm 91
People have failed you, phone Psalm 27
It feels as though God is far from you, phone
Psalm 139

Your faith needs stimulation, phone Hebrews 11
You are alone and scared, phone Psalm 23
You are worried, phone Matthew 8:19-34
You are hurt and critical, phone 1 Corinthians 13
You wonder about Christianity, phone 2 Corinthians 5:15-18
You feel like an outcast, phone Romans 8:31-39
You are seeking peace, phone Matthew 11:25-30
It feels as if the world is bigger than God, phone Psalm 90
You need Christ like insurance, phone Romans 8:1-30
You are leaving home for a trip , phone Psalm 121
You are praying for yourself, phone Psalm 87
You require courage for a task, phone Joshua 1
You are depressive, phone Psalm 27
Your bank account is empty, phone Psalm 37
You lose faith in mankind, phone 1 Corinthians 13
It looks like people are unfriendly, phone John 15
You are losing hope, phone Psalm 126
You feel the world is small compared to you, phone Psalm 19
Paul’s secret for happiness, phone Colossians 3:12-17
With big opportunity/ discovery, phone Isaiah 55
To get along with other people, phone Romans 12
For dealing with fear, call Psalm 47
For security, call Psalm 121:3
For assurance, call Mark 8:35
For reassurance, call Psalm 145:18

If you had the chance…

question.jpg…to ask how you would die, would you ask that question? Tough one, huh. Disclaimer: this is not meant to be a morbid post. I am in a very good mental state right now. Just sharing my curiosity and thoughts.

I asked that question yesterday at my oncology appointment. It was a question out of curiosity as I cannot wrap my head around how this cancer can get me. In my small, finite mind, I had an answer for everything. If it gets to the liver, either do a radiofrequency ablation procedure or surgically remove some of the liver, it will grow back. If it gets to the lungs, take out a lobe of the lung. If it gets to the lymph system, hhmmnnn, not sure about that one.

So, here is the answer my oncologist gave me. First, he corrected me on my two year prognosis. For the second time in eight months, he has told me that these are just averages and that he has many patients out five and seven years. Then he went on to say that there is not a real defining moment in the process. Basically, he said that cancer takes its toll on the body and the body begins to shut down. It can really no longer fight and so it starts the process of shutting down. He went on to say that many of his patients know it is their time before he does.

So, if we keep fighting and keep the cancer at bay, and I continue to keep the positive attitude, maybe I can keep my body from shutting down for a few more decades. Gonna be a battle, but I don’t lose very many things!! Watch out cancer, here I come! Are you ready to RUMBLE!!!!!!!!!

Also, a small bit of good news yesterday. I gained three more pounds the last two weeks. I am now out of my old high school weight and getting back into my college weight. I have gained back a total of 10 pounds and only have 28 more pounds to gain to get back to my fighting weight!

My heart is heavy today…

I got a call last night from a an old high school friend of mine. When he called and I finally realized who it was, I was very happy and thought we would have a great conversation by catching up and talking about the high school days. To say the least, I was not prepared for the conversation that we had.

My buddies name is Chad. His wife’s name is Staci. Chad and Staci have two children, ages 10 and 6. Chad informed me that just earlier that day, Staci was diagnosed with breast cancer. AAAHHHHHHHH!!!!! My heart sank. I was as floored by this news as I was about my own diagnosis. This is another case of LIFE IS NOT FAIR!!!! What did Staci do to deserve this? NOTHING!!!! Now another family and good friend have to begin a journey and fight for life. They do not know what stage she is at, but they do know that it is a rare form of breast cancer that is aggressive, spreads fast, and targets the lymph nodes. NOT FAIR AT ALL!!!!

In my conversation with Chad last night, I felt some peace as he talked. They are doing what they can to work through this life altering event. Chad and his family have a strong faith in God and Chad mentioned that things happen for a reason. This is not an easy time for them right now, so I am asking a favor.

I know and have felt the power of prayer through people that have read this blog and followed my journey. I am asking that all of you begin praying for Chad and Staci and their family. To that end, I know that hundreds of people will be praying for my dear friend and his wife who is beginning a fight that she doesn’t deserve to be fighting.

I keep going back to the Mercy Me song, Bring the Rain. The chorus is:

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings
You glory And I know there’ll
be days When this life brings me pain
But if that’s what it takes to
praise You Jesus, bring the rain

Here is the song.

Refuse to Lose, Chad and Staci!! We are behind you all the way to a complete cure!!

Love thy enemy…

You have to read this. I found this article very interesting. For a soldier, who is committed to serve his country, to be so committed to his faith, that he could not fire on another human being. Read the article HERE and let me know what you think. Did the Army do the right thing? Will there be a line of enlisted men asking for this same discharge? Hmmm…

Oncologist and Surgical Consult Updates…

Well, I have been bad about posting again. Sorry about that. So here is the latest from some meetings this past week.

Met with our oncologist on Tuesday. he was just as shocked and disappointed about my last CT scan as I was. He did take some time out of one of his days to sit with a radiologist and review my scan. It seems that the cancer did get worse, but the scan looked better than the report read. So, it is a little worse than before, but not as horribly bad as I originally thought. I am off of chemo as I prep for surgery and that makes me a little nervous. We are basically taking me off of chemo for a month and letting the cancer go until surgery. Not my idea of a good time as this is weighing heavily on my mind. We know this cancer is aggressive and we are just letting it ride for about a month. Not really sure what to think about this.

On Thursday, we met with our surgeon. GREAT meeting with him. He really put my mind at ease about the surgery. I started asking a bunch of questions and he answered every last one of them. Then he sat and talked to me. He told me not to worry about anything. He told me that I will have a first class team around me that day in surgery. He reassured me that all will go well and that the team will take care of me. At that time, I felt a shot of God’s grace as I began to be calm and assured all would be well. Then our surgeon focused on Sandi. He told her that she would have the harder day then me. He is right. I am going to be out cold for about 9 or 10 hours in surgery and recovery. On the other hand, our surgeon wanted to ensure that Sandi would have family and friends around her that day. I was very surprised that our surgeon was so worried about Sandi that day. He knew that the day of surgery would be hard for Sandi. He will give her updates hourly on my status during surgery, but she will be wondering and waiting for 9 hours or so. She will have the harder day, no doubt about it.

Bad news…the surgery has been postponed for a week. There is a certain drug that was in my chemo mix that causes me to bleed more than normal. My surgeon wanted me off of that drug for eight weeks. Well, the original surgery date of October 19th in only seven weeks out. So, we had to move the surgery date to October 26th. So, it is a waiting game at this point.

Pray requests: Keep praying as you have been. I have listed a few in my last update post, but I would like to add a new on. Like I noted earlier in this post, I am off of chemo. Please pray that the cancer will not spread any further than it has. The cancer cannot spread to my small bowel, bladder, liver, lungs or stomach. At this time, the cancer is not being treated until surgery, so it is on it’s own. Pray that the cancer does not spread and even shrinks or even GOES AWAY!!!

On the journey!!

Wow, is all I can say…

This is a must watch video. It is about 6:30 minutes long, but worth every second. Props to Aaron, over at Arms Wide Open, for posting this one.

Click HERE to get to Aaron’s post to watch this stirring video that really portrays John 3:16.

Thought for the day…

This came to me from a friend and I thought I would share it…

“God knows your secret longings, He knows your silent tear and even within the shadows His hand is on your fears. When your head is on the pillow in the wee hours past midnight just trust that God is with you somewhere within your room this night watching, never sleeping. He tends your fragile care and in the quiet hours a vigil keeping He breaths for you a prayer. Just trust Him for the answers that a questioning heart can’t give, for God holds your every tomorrow knowing your ‘each today’ is His.” Author unknown